Recently I've had few questions regarding why I write here at all...from quite a few people. I was quite surprised...and...I decided to state my honest opinion that, I think you all have a rather silly question.

First of all, keeping randomly meaningless blog is what Web 2.0 is all about right? So you should get one today too and start stroking your keyboard or else the internet would soon get pretty boring. If it wasn't for people procrastinating from their CS assignments at 3am to type all this, you all wouldn't have a blog to read and stalk on other people's private life with. I know that's one thing that makes you happy.

Anyway, enough with sarcasm, since yall don't like Japanese and my grammar is (purposefully) chaotic that Google Translator doesn't prove of much help, here's a night of English blurb for you. I just hope you don't have to go translate it back to...Chinese or something in order to get a glimpse of what I feel in life.

So...having stared at a big chunk of black and white wall of code for the entire day, I'm just thinking to myself...you know, its so hard to put it in a way so nobody knows what I'm *really* talking about, but I'm just thinking to myself, that there's just too much things in life that are...just...different from the way I know it.

Like, you know, if you always had eggs and toast in the for breakfast all your life, and if you were told you can only have curry for breakfast from now on....how in the world are you supposed to adapt to it? Or do you just do? Anyhow, curry every morning is gross.

So, I'm not sure if its just my inability to adapt or I was never meant for it, but...oh screw this.

この世にはどんなに慣れようとしても、慣れない物事があるのよ・・・で、私は今その壁にぶち当たってる感じ。今まで見たことない物とか、やってみた事がない物って、とりあえず新鮮でドキドキするけど、時に自分の習慣と違いすぎて怖い。

いや、薬とかしてるわけじゃないから。

とにかくここはカナダだからね～・・・こっちの方法とかやり方とか、あるんだろうけど・・・もう新しい事に適応するには年をとり過ぎてるのかな・・・と思ってみたりする、２１歳。

どうなることやら。

まあ、新しい学期も始まったことだし、色々書いてみようかなぁ、と思ってたところに、ちょうどちょっとした、悩みができてしまって、悶々しておる美咲でございます。

勉強はかなり順調（？）であまり心配してないんだけど、最近またカレシとケンカ中。しかも理由わからん。いや、わかってるんだけどね、黙って夜な夜な、遊びに繰り出した私が悪いんだってことはわかっているんだよね。でもそれで一週間くらいシカトはきつい。しかもいつもそう。毎度毎度シカトされて、もうこの野郎はもっとマシに問題を解決できないかと。

で、元カレにはラッキーなことにぜんぜんあってない。学校の中でも会わないから結構気が楽。

Other than that, I don't know how to explain.

・・・というか、今の段階では何にもいえん。

でも、ちゃんと自分に忠告しなきゃ。リセットスイッチがまだ利くまでに、のめりこんで自分の二の舞にならんように。

注意するんだね。築き上げてきたものを、迷いに迷ってなくさないように。

うん。もう寝る。